I would have made it clear that I did not wish to participate.

[Which would be... famous last words, once she realizes they're going to discuss Alenroux and she doesn't trust a single one of them to fight for it as hard or as stubbornly as she would.]

And if I had said it, people would have been far more hesitant to air out their opinions of whether I would have made a good ambassador or not.

[- So apparently she doesn't consider his deflection to have worked. Also apparently... She was very offended by what was said there, whether she wanted to do it or not.]