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Claude von Riegan ([personal profile] leicesters) wrote2022-12-06 08:26 pm
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-01 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[Byleth sat down across from Claude and picked up the menu, but didn't look at it quite yet, since he felt Claude's question deserved his undivided attention.]

...my thoughts...

[Excuse the pause. Byleth.exe is trying to process his feelings on the matter into something vaguely coherent.]

If we're to be honest, then... the situation regarding Manon makes me uneasy. It feels like a trap to me, that we're being set up as part of some convoluted scheme that'll bite us further down the road. Whether it is Zenith's, Meridian's, or a third party's, I cannot say.

[He set the menu down.]

That may be my own stress causing me to feel unduly paranoid, though. It's not based on any evidence, only gut feeling. [...] There's a lot about this situation I dislike. Additionally, I spoke to Yima during the Communion, and that conversation was... frustrating, for many reasons.
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-02 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
Why she insists on cooperation when conflict is inevitable.

[Byleth picked up the menu again, idly scanning it.]

It seemed disingenuous to me, as the race for the Oracles will inevitably set Zenith and Meridian on opposite sides. The Manon Dilemma, as well, does not reflect her public desire for peace: Zenith and Meridian likely frequently assassinate each other's members. They're our opponents, not our allies. I don't understand the logic.

[........well, he said he'd be honest, so...]

And then she... said something that made me lose my temper, so I cut the conversation short. In all, it was a disatisfying conversation.
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 03:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[Byleth absorbed this quietly.

Truthfully, he never paid any attention to the politics of Fódlan even after the war had broken out. Jeralt was the one who had to sense where the wind was blowing, to sniff out where the best jobs would crop up next because Sir So-and-So hated Count What'shisface and so sent catpaws (mercenaries) to duke it out in the middle of the woods to decide who was right - but discreetly, because publicly they were the best of friends, the strongest of allies, they would never have a disagreement!

It was, as Jeralt would sigh:]


Oh. [Byleth made an enlightened noise.] It's "noble bullshit".
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I see... but, what I don't understand is that the cooperation is only temporary. With us both pursuing the Oracles for our own reasons, it'll force us both into more open conflict, which everyone acknowledges. It feels... it's...

[Byleth paused, clearly struggling to put his feelings into coherent words. He let out a short breath - frustration.]

As a mercenary, I've done many unscrupulous things to survive. I understand that it's an unavoidable part of living. We all must take lives to prolong our own, and honour is worthless to a corpse. Still, there're some principles I try to stick to, if only so I can live my life with as few regrets as I can. One of those is never betraying an ally, it's a line I refuse to cross. Yet, this... attempting to reach an alliance of sorts with Zenith, all while expecting to fight them eventually... it skirts close to that, doesn't it?
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
...

[Byleth actually started to frown, his lack of comprehension evident. He understood in a way, he did. Mercenary bands occasionally worked together to achieve a singular purpose - but the selfishness of such an action was always stated plainly between parties. They weren't 'alliances', they were 'favours'. Taking a contract for a client wasn't an 'alliance', that was just 'business'. Jeralt made sure Byleth understood that.

"How do I explain... a true ally is like a friend," Jeralt had said long ago. So, Byleth had used that as a handrail. An ally is a friend, and you do not betray friends. It was straightforward and simple, and he was beginning to realise maybe it was too simple. In the face of Claude's explanation, and the realisation that 'alliances' were tainted by that 'noble bullshit', it made Byleth feel more than a little stupid.]


I thought allies were friends...?
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 06:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I see.

[Byleth's response was stiff, if only because he felt so embarrassed at misunderstanding something that was apparently extremely obvious to everyone else. He didn't understand, though. Jeralt had told him...

...

...had Byleth taken his words too literally? Or had Jeralt lied to him? Oversimplified, because he thought Byleth wouldn't understand? He felt stung at the thought, but he didn't know where the hurt was directed towards.]


This is why I lived in the woods. People are too difficult. [He pointedly looked down at the menu.] Are you ready to order?
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[Byleth made a noise of acknowledgement, and he flagged a passing staff member down to deliver their orders. While Claude went for the tea, Byleth ordered a rooibos tea and... at least three different cakes, ranging from mild (lemon and poppyseed) to pure decadence (triple chocolate cake with cream).]

We can share the food. [he said, as the staff member walked off to fulfil their order.] Also, I forgot to say: thank you for clarifying. I'll not lie and say I fully accept the explanation, but I know you only wish for me to avoid being tricked in some way.
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I didn't intend to let Yima provoke me... but I understand. I'll be careful.

[...he abruptly huffed out an amused noise.]

This was meant to be an outing where I would support you for once, Claude, but again it's you looking out for me. [He tilted his head slightly.] Are you certain I was your teacher, and not the other way round?
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Mysteries...

[Which reminded him. Byleth sobered slightly.]

Claude, when we met at the tavern, us and Dimitri, to discuss our respective timelines, you mentioned that you discovered many secrets about Fódlan, the Church and... me. Am I safe to assume you know about...

[He didn't say it, in case Claude didn't, and he was referring to something harmless like, he didn't know, Byleth's great love for pressing his face into fluffy cat bellies or something. Instead, Byleth patted his chest - where the Crest Stone sat.]
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-03 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[Byleth was hesitant, unsure if Claude was trying to bait him into saying more than he should. But at this point, if Byleth couldn't trust Claude, then he couldn't trust anyone here.]

...I know that I have a Crest Stone implanted into my chest, and that is what's functioning as my heart. I also possess the Crest of Flames, passed down to me from my mother, Sitri. Jeralt faked my death as a baby, so that he could take me away from Garreg Mach and Rhea, because he didn't trust her. We've avoided the Church ever since.

[Safe, easy answers. There was a pause, one where Byleth gave Claude a long stare, weighing his words.]

I also know that I'm not entirely human. [His voice is quieter here.] Not even Jeralt could accurately say what... I am, exactly.

[Jeralt had admitted his ignorance when finally telling him about everything - including his own long lifespan and convoluted history with Rhea. Jeralt had known what Sitri was - a vessel, created by Rhea, but what that entailed... Rhea was skilled at blood magic, transfusing it, creating homunculi, and it was likely Sitri shared Rhea's blood and flesh. Jeralt didn't know, could only speculate.

But it didn't matter, Jeralt had said, at the end of the day, Byleth was himself, and that's all that mattered: "Even if you sprouted wings and turned into a Divine Beast right in front of me, you'd still be my kid, got it?" Byleth had believed him - still did.]


I'm also the vessel for Sothis. That's... all I'm aware of. I think.
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-04 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
No. I don't want to know.

[While he didn't know the full story, he already knew and understood Rhea's motivations, and that was enough. She had wanted her mother back. Were Byleth in her position... he likely would've done the same, had he the means.]

Sothis and Jeralt told me enough. Rhea wanted her mother back, and so she crafted multiple vessels to achieve that aim. I don't need to know any more than that. Her past is her own business.

[He had those dreams anyway. Rhea - Seiros - standing beneath the rising dawn, crazed grief and fury in her eyes. The rawness of it still struck him, from time to time.]
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-04 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
Hm. Her memories are fine in my timeline, and she's still able to speak to me. On occasion, possess me too, though that's something we've negotiated not to happen anymore.

[Not unless Byleth's sense of self suddenly imploded and she was left as the only one at the steering wheel, then she could have his body for all he cared. Dismissing all worries about divine bodysnatching, however, he tugged one of the cakes towards him - the chocolate overload one - and began to plan his approach. It looked like it'd be messy to eat...]

But here, she hasn't said a word. I think she must be asleep, rather than completely absent, as I still have access to her temporal powers. [He took the plunge, carefully using the side of his fork to cut a small piece of the chocolate cake, just large enough for a mouthful.] Albeit very weakened.
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[personal profile] fishfearme 2023-03-04 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[Byleth paused his careful excavation of the cake at Claude's question, and looked at him, blinking slowly.]

...you weren't aware?

[He had assumed Claude would've known, since he knew about Sitri and Sothis and everything else. On the ranking system, the temporal powers were pretty low on what Byleth considered private or difficult to talk about. Well, it was difficult to talk about, but more in terms of having people believe him, rather than it being emotionally difficult.]

Sothis has the ability to manipulate time as she fits. As her vessel, she has gifted me with some of that power, though it's only a sliver of what she can achieve.

[She said she could reverse time, yet oddly barred that from Byleth's access. Not that he was complaining: being able to stop time whenever he pleased was just as advantageous.]

I can briefly exist outside of time. Usually, I use this to either cross distances instantaneously - a form of teleportation - or to kill my enemy whilst time is frozen for them. Here, however, that power is greatly diminished. I can only stop time for a handful of seconds, and it takes minutes for me to be able to do it again - whereas before I only required half a minute's pause, if that.

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